Grey’s Anatomy alum Sarah Drew remembers her firing feeling “mean and unfair.”

Sarah Drew Is Reflecting on the time she was released from Grey’s Anatomy after being on the show for nine seasons.

Drew played Dr. April Kepner and left the ABC drama series after Season 14 when her option opposite Jessica Capshaw was not accepted.

During an appearance on the Call it like it is On the podcast, co-hosted by Drew’s former co-stars Capshaw and Camilla Luddington, Drew explained how she felt about leaving the show.

“[I] was summarily dismissed in a way that felt mean and unfair, and because of that the love was so powerful that it was like sitting there and people watching [eulogize you]Drew said.

She gave an interview vulture following her exit in 2018, in which she compared being excluded from the show to “participation.” [my] own funeral.”

After Deadline broke the news that Drew and Capshaw would be leaving the medical drama, Drew took to social media to reach out to her fans.

“I know you’re sad. I’m sad too,” Drew wrote on X, formerly known as Twitter. “I didn’t really have the time to process this information. Since I’ve only been here for less than 48 hours, I’m not yet ready to say thank you or make a full statement about my nine years here.”