Jennifer Lopez breaks her silence on her split from Ben Affleck

Jennifer Lopez has broken her silence about her split from Ben Affleck after two years of marriage.

The star, who modeled the leopard print for the cover of Interview magazine to mark its 55th anniversary, said it was “sad and scary”.

The diva looked sensational in animal print bikinis as she spoke to Nikki Glaser about it Her life exploded before her eyes this year and the life lessons she still needs to learn despite not using Ben’s name; Jen and Ben separated in April and she filed for divorce on August 20, their two-year wedding anniversary.

And then the 55-year-old songbird said she needed to be alone again after leaving Ben: “You need to be healthy.” You need to be complete if you want something more complete. You have to be good on your own. I thought I had learned this, but I didn’t. And then this summer I had to say, ‘I need to go out and be alone.’ I want to prove to myself that I can do that.”

But the artist doesn’t regret it: “Not for a second.” But that doesn’t mean that it didn’t almost completely wipe me out. That almost happened.’

Lopez also said during her tell-all interview that she isn’t hoping to date anyone else right now: “I’m not looking for anyone.’

The star, who modeled the leopard print for the cover of Interview magazine to mark its 55th anniversary, said it was “sad and scary”.

When Nikki asked if the breakup was “hard,” JLo replied, “Yeah, it’s fucking hard!”

And she is sad.

“It feels lonely, unfamiliar and scary.” It feels sad. “It feels desperate,” the Can’t Get Enough singer noted.

“But when you sit in those feelings and think, ‘These things aren’t going to kill me,’ then it’s like I’m actually capable of feeling joy and happiness all on my own.” Being in a relationship defines me not me. I can’t seek my happiness from other people. I must have happiness in me. I always said I was a happy person, but I was still looking for something that someone else could fill, and then I just said, “No, actually I’m good.”

Talking about her “lessons,” she said it was a “lifelong process.”

“I think that’s what I love about life, that there’s no arrival point,” the Bronx beauty said.

“You only get better and grow if you want to.” It’s growing or dying, and I don’t want to do the dying part.

“And yes, there are times when I thought I had it figured out and then life says, ‘Let’s send you something else and see if you fall for it.'” Let’s see if you’ve really learned that lesson. “And I didn’t have that.

“I understand this in a much deeper way now, which doesn’t mean I won’t make mistakes in the future, but when your whole house blows up, you stand there in the rubble and ask yourself, ‘How does this work?’ I’ll never let this happen again?”

The diva looked sensational in animal print bikinis as she chatted about her crazy summer with Nikki Glaser

The Atlas actress opened up about how her life “fell apart” this year and what life lessons she still needs to learn, even though she didn’t use Ben’s name

On the left with Ben when they got engaged in 2003 and on the right with her at the premiere of his film “Unstoppable” at TIFF

“And then you start to examine it little by little and say, ‘Okay, this is what I did, this was my part in it, this is what I should have seen early on, this is what I didn’t look at.’ “These things are the real lessons.”

On the other hand, without mentioning the end of her marriage to Affleck, she said that she hasn’t learned her lesson.

“The work is figuring yourself out.” “It’s looking back at the underlying feelings and the belief systems we have about ourselves that lead us to make certain decisions and create certain patterns in our lives” , she said.

“So when you get to the point where you think you’ve learned the lesson and then it blows up in your face again, you realize, ‘Okay, I haven’t, so what do I have to do?’ “Look at it now?” I would say: Never stop looking inward, because it’s so easy to blame everyone else.”

And then she said she needed to be alone again after leaving Ben: “But you have to be healthy.” “You have to be complete if you want something more complete”

She added: “You have to be good on your own.” I thought I had learned that, but I didn’t. And then this summer I had to say, “I need to go out and be alone.” “I want to prove to myself that I can do this.”

When Nikki asked if it was “hard,” JLo replied, “Yeah, it’s fucking hard!”

And she is sad. “It feels lonely, unfamiliar and scary.” It feels sad. “It feels desperate,” the Can’t Get Enough singer noted

Lopez then said that even her flaws should be loved while addressing “boundaries.”

“Someone who really loves you will help you heal those parts of you.” That’s what I learned about love, that it’s a sure thing. You make me feel safe and when I don’t achieve the glory, you understand me and help me get better because you have your limits and I have my limits.’

When Glaser said, “It sounds to me like you have a new bar for the next person that comes along,” Lopez replied, “Here’s the thing: There’s no new bar because I’m not looking for anyone.” Like is that?’

Jennifer also said that this was the first time she had ever said that as a single woman, adding, “You know what?” For people who are romantics and like to be in relationships and want to grow old with someone, think us: “I have to have this in order to be whole and happy.” And you don’t do that.’

And she added that it took 30 years to get to this place.

As for all the negative comments about her divorce, she says she’s dealing with it even though she’s “not Teflon” because it can hurt sometimes.

Towards the end of the interview, Nikki asks Jennifer again about the end of her marriage.

“You don’t regret the pain you just went through,” Glaser said.

Regarding Ben’s new film “Unstoppable”, in which she plays a role, she said it was “really beautiful”. “I made the film because it was such an inspiring story, and it was a Latino story.”

“Not for a second. But that doesn’t mean it didn’t almost wipe me out for good. That almost happened. But now, on the other side, I’m like, “Shit, this is exactly what I needed.” Thank God. I’m sorry it took so long. I’m sorry you had to do that to me so many times. I should have learned it two or three times already. I understand it. You had to hit me in the head really hard with a damn sledgehammer. You gave me the house. “Don’t have to do it again.”‘

Glaser then said, “You finally got it.”

The Maid In Manhattan actress agreed: “I finally got it!” And that doesn’t mean I have it all figured out, by the way. Now I get excited when you say you’ll just be alone. Yeah, I’m not looking for anyone because everything I’ve done over the last 25, 30 years, in these different challenging situations, what the fuck can I do if I just fly alone. ‘

Regarding Ben’s new film “Unstoppable”, in which she plays a role, she said it was “really beautiful”.

“I made the film because it was such an inspiring story and it was a Latino story.” It’s about Anthony Robles, a wrestler who was born with one leg, and how he defied all odds in his sport. “I play his mother, who had him when she was 16,” she said.

And she saw the film at TIFF. “I was able to see it for the first time in front of an audience in Toronto and people loved it and really responded to the emotion of the film.” “It’s one of those great inspirational stories that I think the world needs right now.”